Chez Yejuuun

sick at home...did some work but was resting for most of the time...realized how much life had sucked as a few episodes of gossip girl (no judging!) on a comfy bed, which were such easy things in college, had completely made my most relaxing day since coming here. kinda lame, i know, but it's the state of my life. also, i figured out why i was always swinging between le coeur and la raison (kind of) - i'm simply too lazy/emotional/whatever you wanna name it, to be completely rational all the time, hehe ;P

不知不觉已经十月，到新加坡上班也快一个半月了。虽然每天的工作都略有不同，但总体上日子还是过得挺有规律。工作，吃饭，打电话，睡觉，差不多就概括了我现在的生活状态，忙碌却也不乏茫然。今天晚饭时回想过去的这几个星期，仿佛自己最爱挂在嘴边的词就是I miss。从I miss training，到I miss being a student/miss Hamilton，当然还有嘴上不怎么说，心里却时刻挂念的她，自己听听都觉得像是一个活在过去的人。我到底怀念的是什么呢？当学生的人往往会抱怨自己有时间没钱，渴望早日找到一份工作，事业有所发展，可以满足自己很多的愿望。可当你真正开始工作了，却发觉自己有钱没时间，工作外的生活只能用贫乏来形容，远远比不上学生时代的“穷开心”。都说the grass is always greener on the other side，也许真是这样，可问题是the greener grass may not be as healthy, or may simply not be what you really want.所谓怀念，根据定义应该是已发生的，真真实实的事物，可有些时候，却可能只是一个个理想的状态，一条条细节的组合。从这个意义上来说，我怀念的是我想追求的，未达到却真实存在的精神寄托。至于能否某天实现，我不敢多想，也许也无需多想，因为只怕想多了，反而会失去前进的力量。

轮回

selective memory

热闹是他们的，我什么都没有

自作孽

突然想起你

bmw - 别摸我

雨

窗外的天气

 

..ok, back to work

生活是不会任你而变的。但是如果你能调整自己的预期，以正确的态度面对她，学着去适应她，那么，你同样能够好好地活着。 --希望自己以后都不会忘记这个道理 =) 与大家共勉

回家快一个礼拜了，一直觉得挺累。感觉从graduation trip开始就一直没有进入过vacation mode，整天跑东跑西，没睡过一天安稳觉。本以为回到家可以稍微放松下，结果还是一堆小破事，哎。好了，先不抱怨了，说说最近一些随感吧，在我忘记之前。

 

1。做人一定要有原则，有分寸，就像commencement speech上说的，要有integrity。虽然世界变得那么快，但如果连一些最基本的东西都不能坚持，那哪里还有自我呢？

2。做人不能忘本，不要被一些短暂的表面现象冲昏头脑。用长远的目光看问题，时不时地check一下自己的priority list究竟是否make sense。

3。relationships are like internships. there's no guarantee of a full-time offer, but if you get too hung up on that, you are likely to miss the most important point : to learn more about the job, what you do and do not like about it, how you might or might not fit in, and what you really want for yourself. so work hard and try to accomplish these things, and even if you didn't get the offer in the end, you'd have already got something equally valuable, if not more.

4。there's a fine line between being honest and knowing how to be considerate. the trick lies in how to be both.

 

P.S. 最近天灾人祸连连，希望我的朋友们和他们所关心的人都能平平安安，一切顺利。

P.P.S. Partial credit of #3 goes to le petit lapin.

The distance between one another is a curious thing. Sometimes people get too close, and are prone to see things they are unwilling to see, or get hurt in unexpected ways. The scar that is left can be inevitably long-lasting. Other times, they go in the opposite direction, giving the impression that they are not being frank or socialable, and reject other people even before they can come closer. Keeping the right distance and making sure that everyone has appropriate expections, be it between same or opposite sexes, is therefore an extremely important yet hard-to-master type of art, like so many other things in life. 人与人之间的距离，真是一样很奇妙的东西。太近了，容易看到一些不愿意看到的东西，受到一些没想到的伤害，结果总免不了心有余悸。太远了，又给人感觉不够坦诚，孤芳自赏，拒人于千里。保持合适的距离，让彼此都有正确的期望值，无论是同性还是异性之间，就像生活中的很多事一样，是一门极其重要却又难掌握的学问。

 

It is a perpetual struggle between following one's heart and well-thought-out reasoning, and I don't pretend to have the answer. What I can say is this: if you follow your instincts and really give all you have, you should not have much to regret regardless of the outcome, because you have chosen to live your life the way you truly want it to. （中文待续）

 

I always consider myself a very lucky guy, despite the various misfortunes that have happened. Having a few friends with whom I can just pick up the phone (or open up the chat window) and talk about all my deepest feelings without worrying where they are or when was the last time we talked, is one of the greatest gifts that God has ever given to me. （中文待续）

 

but this week is gonna suck so much more...

why am i having my busiest semester when i'm about to graduate in 3 weeks, when the weather is strangely nice, and when all my peers are enjoying themselves every minute that i spend doing work? what did i do so wrong in my past life? geez...

-a helpless senior who just suffered a mild stroke after taking a three-hour math exam, wanted to make a fuss about his current life to prove his mere existence, and now have to go back to the miserable (i mean, beautiful) world of writing an econ thesis, among other things...ohhh yeah...